The Roller Coaster of Christian College Life
As an average 22 year old, running between classes, meetings, extracurricular activities, and work, I often become overwhelmed with the burden of feeling incapable of being able to manage this crazy thing we call the college years. Some days nothing seems to go my way, and before I know it, my whole world has turned upside down. I have discovered in more recent years that there seems to be a direct correlation between the level of happiness and contentment in life and the level of commitment to my faith.
My life feels like a roller coaster ride, the kind where one minute I am at the top of a huge hill and feel ready to conquer anything, and the next minute my heart drops to my stomach and I feel sick. Likewise, I have found that there are times when one week I will feel like I’m on top of the world and can see every opportunity laid out in front of me, and the next week, I have somehow fallen into the depths of despair and don’t even know which way is up anymore. My faith life has the up and down feelings of a roller coaster as well. Some weeks I am better at remembering my daily devotions, prayers, and conversations with God, and other weeks, I am rather forgetful. Typically, the weeks I find myself calling on God more are the weeks when I’m feeling exceptionally overwhelmed. These weeks are blessings in that they pull me back to what I need to be focused on, and while I am grateful that they serve as a reminder in this way, I also during these times feel great disappointment in myself. I feel disappointed that in trying times, I come crawling to God with a heavy heart and a broken spirit, asking for his guidance and love, only to push him to the back corner of my mind as soon as things turn right side up again. During these times I plead to God for not only his support, but also for the willpower to keep him a priority at all times in my life, and not only when I feel like I need some serious intervention from the Big Guy upstairs. As determined as I always am to stay on the right track, making God the focal point of my life, time and time again, I fall off the tracks, and time and time again, I lose myself, because time and time again, I take my focus off of God.
But, time and time again, God always welcomes me back into his gracious arms as his child. Even though I often become frustrated with myself for not being able to handle my hectic life and for continuously forgetting to put God first, when I am gently reminded by worldly disappointments, God comforts me by directing me to his encouraging Word: “Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint” (Isaiah 40:28-31).
As an average 22 year old, I often become overwhelmed. As an average 22 year old with faith in the Lord’s unrelenting love, I can be at ease knowing that no matter how many times I ask for his help, God will always pick me up when I’m down. I can constantly be comforted in the knowledge that God will never turn his face from me, even though I may turn my face away from him while I’m too busy focusing on the things of this world. I can find relief and consolation that in this roller coaster of life, God will never neglect me, and will always offer me his reassurance and love
Marquette University Student